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cw: suicidal thoughts

[wicka]

Yes I am
I'm a fucking monster and I don't know why I thought that could be different
Nothing good ever happens from my 'potential'
Even the magic I learned ended up hurting people

They killed all of us at the end, did u know that?
Burning together was our punishment
And then I had to wake up not even knowing who I was
Just another fucking monster

I don't want to be a beast
I don't want to be anything
I just wanted to stay dead

[morrer]

Well, unfortunately for you then, nobody stays dead here. Not very long

I told you you needed balance.
You can tame what you are and control it or you can fear it and abandon it
but it will always be there.
You're not accepting of it, even still

You're not accepting who you are

[wicka]

But the only way to do that is by hurting people
It's not balance it's just
Bad

[morrer]

You'll let them hurt you, but not hurt them?

[wicka]

I already hurt them, didn't I?

[morrer]

So what would you do instead?

If you won't hurt back and continue the cycle of balance, what else could you do?

[wicka]

I could be
I don't know

[ Pause. There's really no other word, ]

Normal

[morrer]

And what is normal?

There is no normal. Especially not here.

[wicka]

That doesn't mean we should do all this fucked up stuff the whole time

Don't u get tired of it?

[morrer]

This is tame compared to some of what I've seen humanity do.

[wicka]

[ Well — yeah. ]

Did u ever have faith in us
That we could be better

[morrer]

I know you can be, I know you can be worse
I don't have desire to see you take either path in particular.
I just bear witness to what you do

[wicka]

U never interfere?

[morrer]

I try not to. Only in certain circumstances do I.

[wicka]

Could u have interfered out there
If u were with us

[morrer]

No, not here.
There was something creating boundaries.

[wicka]

Like how I couldn't use my magic?

[morrer]

Yes
There's something disruptive that even affects Zephir and I.

[wicka]

[ Damn.

But that also explains why no one stays dead, right? Why he and Sully are even having this conversation. ]

Is that scary

[morrer]

To me it's an annoyance
To humans, perhaps it's scary.
Is it scary to you?

[wicka]

Not sure
I guess?
My magic's been taken away from me a bunch of times here
Maybe it's scary to think I might never get it back if it happens again
Or the

[ Wolf. ]

The other thing

[morrer]

let us hope they don't keep playing games with us, then

[Because Sully's Getting Tired of it.]

[wicka]

U know they're going to

[morrer]

There's only so much teasing I can take, unfortunately

[wicka]

Meaning what?